Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy

I've been feeling a bit contemplative lately. Really doing a life check. You know how you feel like you're never quite satisfied and are always wanting more, trying to do more, and overall just BE more? I've felt that way for probably a year. Trying to figure out if I should go back to work, or continue staying at home, and what to do about daycare for Aidan? Oh, and if I DO look for work, what do I want to do? What do I want to be? If I stay at home, am I doing enough? Is the house getting clean enough, is the laundry done, dishes done? Is Aidan learning enough, is he socialized enough, do we participate in enough activities? I'm pretty sure every Mom probably goes through this, but you always feel like you're the only one when YOU are going through it.

So, here we are watching the economy go in the crapper, large companies are going bankrupt, homes are being foreclosed, and the political campaign is turning everyone into idiots, and you try to find some perspective on everything!! Well, I've come to the deduction that my life is simple and I finally like it that way. Simple is a good thing!!

In my simple life I have lots of extraordinary moments that I'm learning to value more and more every day. True happiness IS in the little things - like watching The Biggest Loser and crying like a baby, or like lazing around on an ordinary summer day on floaties in a pool talking about celebrities with your little sister, watching Aidan try on my shoes, an email from my Dad, saying I love you to any of my in-laws and meaning it each and every time, an email from my sister on her latest hottie-rockstar-boyfriend, a facebook message from a long lost highschool friend, an awesome new undiscovered website, hearing Aidan say "tanktu" and meaning "thank you", seeing the inside of your closet finally organized after a few days of hard work, a great new recipe, hearing "you are a good Mom" from your mother in law, your backyard after it's been freshly mowed, hearing someone say I'm sorry after a period of conflict, a perfect sweet & creamy cup of coffee, the times when my dog Jack picks me over Chris, knowing that even though money is tight everything is going to be okay, watching my Mom show Aidan her pond, Aidan blowing me kisses, Aidan hugs, Aidan smiles, loving our very first home and knowing it's actually OURS, seeing Chris all dressed up on his way to work and smelling his cologne on his way out the door, finding the perfect spot in my house for a cherished picture, planning trips with family, seeing my cousin Erin kissing on her baby boy, watching Uncle Matt chase Aidan around at Chief's Pinning, getting all dressed up for a night on the town, a 10% off coupon for Lowe's, Aidan's laugh when he's playing with Jack, cleaning a room and seeing the clean lines left from the vaccum, learning how to play Bunco with a group of new friends, a soft, fresh chocolatey Hershey's kiss, I could go on and on and on....

So the point is, after some settling into this house, this town, this life, I'm feeling (for today at least) that I'm right where I should be.

Side note: Wishing my baby sister Kelly and cousin Erin a wonderful day!! It's their birthday!! Kelly is 21 today, and Erin is a little over 21! :-) Love you girls!!